Dec 30, 2009

Dec 27, 2009

Perfect Designs or Imperfect Foundations?

People. City. Bright lights. Its amazing strolling down an urban downtown just to explore the sights of the city. The frosty fog hides all imperfections of the city as you take a whiff of the finest and most polluted nitrogen in California. Yes! Free at last! The smug grafitti decorated the brick walls and I stop to take a picture. What a refreshing night. Sounds fun? Yes, that would be a "Perfect Design" for a plan for a night. At least for some people. Yes, God created us not to be perfect, but to have a Perfect Design. Do not take this the wrong way though! It does not mean that you are perfect and you can achieve perfection in this lifetime. It means that God has decided to create you in his image and will forevermore expect you to live under the influence of Jesus. In Psalm 139:14, the verse is “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” As the most complex organism on this Earth, humans should celebrate for our gracious God giving us the chance to worship him. Yes! I can totally feel the energy now! So wonderful! Hahaha. All fun and games chaps. So this is what I want to talk about. Psalm 139:14. God's unstoppable imagination and unimaginable willpower created the human anatomy, which to this day is still a mystery to athiests and nonbelievers of the creator, our Father. Its really funny though, if you think about it. How can something so wonderfully made be somehow coming out of nowhere. And plus, the talk about souls! We are the only "animal" on this planet allowed into Heaven. SWEETNESS :) "And that my soul knoweth right well. He was no agnostic -- he knew; he was no doubter -- his soul knew; he was no dupe -- his soul knew right well." It is amazing how God made us down to the cell. So meticulous, don't you think. Well too bad, this is my blog. I think GOD is amazing with his creation. I am a creation of Christ with a fearful design. Wanna let in on another secret? You are too!

Dec 26, 2009


i'mm so board :P
shushnoobs elena is over

Dec 25, 2009

sing a little prayer for you

back from oregon. i'm staying at matthew's house fur lyk 2~3 days. :]
mann it has been so much funnn :D
we had a bunch of memories, a list too long to write.
when i have the time, I will most definetly write a list 4 you guys :D
if you see the Christina photoshoot on Facebook, it was not my idea
since i can't go on facebook, i really want a certain ruth to go online.
happy holidays

i haven't been on my facebook for a while.
though i may fall into peer pressure, i think that i may hafta
control mysself.

i'm listening to matthew fail on his sonata
badromance all the way

merry christmas

dawning is so interesting jason

Dec 23, 2009

Oregon Mission Trip Day #3/#4

it is so saddening. i should change the title from mission trip to retreat. is it really a mission trip? we aren't doing anything to express god's love except for singing his worship. sadface
but then again, most of the ppl at the retreat are leaning toward christianity. it think that is really amazing. but once again i am reminded about how selfish ppl can be. i love the people here, but someone keeps bugging me for my dsi and other ppl also want to play. today he told me i was patronizing him for not giving him my ds. i am thinking that SOME people need to cool it down. he's older than me too.
Okay onto the main subject matter.
So, Dawning, Christina, rehBecca and I really wanted to take action @ this mission trip. we are just being like accesories for the adults. sadly, I don't take that anymoar. I think that we can actually make a difference. We confronted many ppl, who also agreed with us.
But then, we asked Larry and he said do nothing because its already planned out.
well, after some time, I gave it some thought and thought that what larry said wasn't too weird of an idea. Why? Well. they go to GFu (george fox university) and are all under the influence of the Christian university.
We played mafia (a weird version) with some ppl.
IT WAS SOOO MUCHHH FUNNNN. i kept accusing larry, daniel lin, and yile. i don't know why.
it turned out to be my brother, amanda, and someone else. oh right. YILE!
it was so much fun rita is so funny
bu yao dong wo de bo zi
haven't been of facebook srry
wan an

Dec 20, 2009

Oregon Mission Trip Day #2

Okay we are being serious with Dawning for now.
Okay, we need to make a Chrismas carol. We need to make the perfect Christmas Carol.
It is so impoartant to these 30 ppl apparently.
Okay if you are watching this video, I really enjoyed it. Hmmmmm.
I really cannot wait for the time at Oregon Mission Trip.
So to everyone out there following my blog,
How's Christmas Break?


God is awesome, and I am so thankful for Leon's desire to chase after His heart. LEON IS AWESOME, BECAUSE GOD MADE HIM THAT WAY!! :DD pytL:)

Oregon Mission Trip Day #1

Yayyy sorry hahaha
i needed to use this for a while. Anyways i <3>

Day #2 Video will be posted shortly. Anyways I was amazingly happy to see Dawning cuz she's so coool :)
We stayed at Travelodge on the first day and was warmly treated by these lovely ladies who helped us find our ways around the hotel. It was funnn :) ask me for details if you want.

Dec 16, 2009

Day #16 Candy Canes and Shallow Friends

Hmmmm About my story. I discontinued it becuz no one was reading it. :/ Hahaha @ Karen cuz she was forcing ppl to read her story. It was really good *-*. Good luck on finals fo the next deux jours. I'm extremely pooped from a day of school and i wanna just say something on my blog :P You don't need entertainment/enemies/mothers/retards/people with herps (wth are herps?), aids, or down if you have friends like mine. Even though at times all I can think about is how to assasinate them, I still care very mucho for them. They are some of my best friends at school and they are soo weird and awkward :3 haha. in a few ways i really despise them though. hmmm that doens't matter i guess. All I needa know is that they are going to snow retreat. YES SCORE! Haha. :P I can introduce them to my friends.
I need to cut my hair again. Anyways, I thought of my friends because they were acting really shallow (even though I knew they were joking) and I started to get really irratated. Why? Well I'm just saying, I'm the kind of person who think that people being shallow is just an outstretchced arm to show how much more annoying they can be. sheesshhh Owells cuz all is good when God is there:)
yay foars meh.

Facebook 16/16



Dec 15, 2009

Day #15 Unashamed or just PLAIN STUPID?

So, If your really a youtuber, then you must know the video about a group of rap kids singing about a Christian Side Hug. It "prevents your from sexual urges, unlike the front up hug." Now, my friends are making fun of my beliefs now, because I -- apparently -- think that full frontal hugs are wrong, like all Christians now. [This is just a stereotype]. What upsets me the most, besides my freinds being immature, would be the concept of that rap group. Seriously? Are they unashamed, being paid, or just plain stupid?
I think this is pathetic and my friends should just really rethink about this stereotype. Are people really like that? And to be more specific, Christians? No. I think my friends know me well enough, and I just think that their ridicule is somewhat... um how would u say it? stupid... but I guess once again, their MY friends haha. :P Just kidding, their awesome. But I'm begining to ponder if there seriously are people who are rerepresenting Christians in a bad light? Hmmm are they just unashamed or ststupid? Leave your comments
Facebook 15/15
Woohooo :)

[Teh the worst]

Oh, and if your wondering, posts for next week will be cancelled. Oregon trip :) My computer has a virus on it so don't expect mucho

Leave a comment if you want a Christmas
Gift. :)

Dec 14, 2009

Day #12/#13/#14 Conception, Deception, and Recapitulation

'Oh what a tangled web we weave when we first learn to deceive.'
Good morning to a busy week this morning [Day 14] with a BOR scheduled and everything. Study for tests, print out essay outline, finish reading multicultral book, plan about Oregon, and a bunch of stuff. Though this was no comparison to what Jesus or any college student will do in a week, I still feel that I have been so tired throughout the last week. This week will be way worse, and I just know it. It all started with the virus haunting my computer on Saturday [Day 12] and its not gone away. Hm... shall we talk about something more enjoyable? I think we shall. I watched this movie called Darius Goes West today in class. It was pretty much a very enjoyable story with a heartfelt message of living life to the fullest. Sometimes, when I read blogs and ponder about the topics, I can't help but think that this particular person is, well a snobby little child trying to complain about life. Life is not very enjoyable sometimes, but that only measures your happiness in life. Always keep joy with a sorrow face. Remember, it's always easy being satan's right hand man in a day then to be the children of God. Yes, God wants us to be joyful, like Darius. To check out Darius goes West, you can see him @ By going there, you can like um help Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy? My spelling is getting sloppy. Advice from me if your not content with your life. Get real. How much longer are you going to live like a fool who does foolish actions to folly instead of praising the Lord? Staying on this earth is not just for fun and entertainment, its for God. Stop being un-content. Of course, if this is not you being unpleased with life, like your friends leaving you, parents fighting, then that's a different story. You can't buy your life back, so enjoy it and make great use of it. Don't be like me most of the time :P So let's jump into my life for a while. My brother. You know how I don't like him? Well, usually in public, I'm the one who looks bad. I admit, yes I do treat him really badly in public, telling him not to talk to me. This is only because he said he wouldn't talk to me. Now why wouldn't you want your brother to talk to you? He says the meanest things, he swears a lot, and yet when I try to correct him, I am labled a hypocrite then ignored. I'm sometimes called the worst names imaginable, but you know how some siblings are. I just wish my brother wasn't so focused on his own life. Oh... about Elena. Yeah, she's back and I was like yay. She's grown shorter, but i miss her soooo much. :[ She's the coolest cat on the block. Hmmmmm I wonder if Dawning could come back home after her final and come and visit me :) Joyy. Oregon trip practice is going good, but I think I am leaving on Saturday. That means like no blog for about a whole week. Sorry :).
I'm having a really nice time on this earth today just because I'm alive. But this facebook fasting thing is getting a little too easy. I don't really even need facebook anymore. Haha. It feels so easy to say no to facebook now. I really encourage everyone to go without two weeks ^^
hahaha <3
Yay a real blog post for once. Oh, The Recapitulation. I'm so screwed for piano. I was sick and I don't want to upset my piano teacher anymore. My recital is drawing near, and I'm really shaky at it. I'm playing the venetian boat song yay. XD Have a nice week, pray for MAC if he comes into mind. Prayer requests? Write them here. Don't ask me to pray for finals because I already will x)
Have a good night x

Current song i'm listening to
Don't Let me Fall - Lenka

Dec 12, 2009


my name on a forum is fat okay :P

Dec 11, 2009

Day #10/#11 _______ Day

Okay, so after I updated my blog, I have been like telling people about this song. Anyways, its called The Fear by Lily Allen. It is absolutely the shallowest song ever. Pshaw.
To Do list
VISIT ELENA! [Top priority]
Catch up on discipleship
Get friends to go to Snow Retreat and tell them about how amazing it is
Get better with photoshop
Compose my first song [background]
Make costume -_- Dawning Help Me :P
Meet with Oregon Friends
Get ready for Constitution Finals
Okay, so today, I wanted to tell everyone I had a blastt [Friday today] at Awana. Actually, that was a lie. Partially, because Matthew wasn't there. He would usually annoy me soohh much, he's probably studying for finals. I feel so bad for Helen, get well soon :[ And also Grace and Joshua were flirting about her C+ Essay and her recommendation letter to Duke... OOOHHHHH.
The reason why I left the blank in the title is actually because I can fill that blank with these 15 words
Day to
Time of
i'm so descriptive
yeah peace
Youtube ect. 7/11

Dec 10, 2009

Day #9 Customizing Blog and More Genisis

custom blog yay :D
More Jesus in my life
Gotta cut short
Facebook 9/9
Chat me for more info, working on blog

Dec 9, 2009

Day #8 OMGihee

Almost over the sickness. Oh and, I'm updating my blog layout really soon. and Most likely, there won't be a comment section :P
Sorrrryyyy u can tell me via email :)

Anyways, I f u haven't noticed, I changed my playlist. And i'll explain the songs:
1. Becuz of you
Grace's reniditon was pretty and it sounded just like this one haha and I liked it :)
Props to Grace Wang for being cool :O
2. Lovers in Japan
This song is sooo good. I sang this in the shower for 5 minutes before. It was funful. Anyways, the reason why I chose this songs was actually becuz of like the lyrics. The lyrics are really pretty :D
Yay for pretty lyrics. I also thought of my friend from Japan cuz he lives in Osaka. Yay for Osakans.
3. Annie
Another Vanessa Carlton Song again. :P It has a really melodic pattern and it makes sad situations sadder :D yay for that.  Nice lyrics too.
4. Sea of Faces
My first Kutless song on my iPod. And I just reheard it, so I decided to put it on yay
5. Forget and Not Slow Down
Its from Relient's K most recent album. Its suchhh an aweshum song. *-* Go buy it :D
6. Who Knew
Uh... my favorite P!nk song. Uhh, I haven't listened to it for a while. I always listen to this song and "Just Fine" when i'm feeling unhappy. :/
Boooooooo :P
Yay for chocolate milk.

Cool eh?
Youtube 5/8
[Excluding Hulu, read Day #7]
Facebook 8/8

YAY FOR TUESDAYS [remember this post is belated haha xD]

Dec 8, 2009


Still Coughing Today. Anyways, Today, I wanted to say that I'm sorry my posts are always late. Its just, I like to write about stuff after I get a day to think about it :) This will be a pretty boring thing if your not keeping track of yeah :)
Anyways, I've decided on something. I'm not gonna use the computer as an entertainment source this month, but more as a user source. Like, I won't spend much time entertaining myself, but I'm gonna catch up on hmwk, and pray and learn moar about his word. After all that's what I'm aiming 4 rite? Yay Time for Day 6
I thought I might as well just put the tally up here so NFQ.

Facebook 7/7
Youtube 4/7
Hulu/Video Watching Site 5/7 (i might drop this site becuz there are none of my shows coming on til April 13 :) My Bdayy :D)

oh& here's my first topic
I need to restrain myself from this computer thing. I know facebook is easy, but Youtube is not that easy cuz its becoming a routine. And if I don't make time from youtube, I won't have enough time for God :[ Also, I think I need to meditate on his word more. From 15 mins now to 20 mins :)
I only read like 2 chapters but lyk I think about them for a bit between the big titles :) yah. I'm cool

Second Topic.
Whether you like Tdrama, Cdrama, (Cdrama and Tdrama are sooo overrated) and the more overrated Jdrama, Kdrama, or anything like that, you should have a "favorite actor/actress"
So yesterday I saw my friends status which said "OMG SO HOT." And it was raining the other day when I saw it so I clicked on the link and it was a compilation of videos about some multitalent named Show Lo. And all I said throughout the whole video is "Everyone's treating him like a god :P" But like, seriously, these were some of the comments:

OMG HE'S SO CUTE I can't believe he's almost 30.

So sexxai

Nice Video. I like how his acting career doesn't make him rude and snobby like other actors. His personality... blahblahblah

I'm just saying, who has these celebrity fantasies??? Actually, a more legitamite question, how ever so likely will they come true. Just a pure fluke that they even know your name
Anyways, I'm all i'm saying that this guy can sing, act, and dance. :P
So what, we also have a fame club at our school xD Greeattt.... what is up with girls and Tdramas and Kdramas and Cdramas? :P
Personalities are covers of a real person sometimes. :)

i think that girls are weird sometimes
but that's natural
cuz god made us cool :)
Hahahahahahaha. I enjoyed C dramas (not about like fighting and war ones) and T dramas a longggg time ago. I thought they were bland enough to kill time.
Oatmeal came to my mind when watching a fan video.


Dec 6, 2009

Day #4/#5 Nothing... Seriously

I loafed at home acting like a sick homeless person for 2 days, Day #2 and Day #3. So sorry I haven't been updating. I'm still sick. Anyways, Day #4...
YES I BEAT PHOENIX WRIGHT #2 and I read some Bible. Anyways, what I wa sreading today was actually about a woman who just HAPPENED TO BE A SPIRIT MEDIUM. And basically, Saul goes to this woman to summon Samuel. The women gets all suspicious and is like "WAIT YOUR SAUL" and then freaks out. But she still summons him :P
Interesting story. Nothing that Fun happened. No Youtube or any funny business.
Thanks to Dawning to believing in me :) I can push through another 28ish days?
Hmm, forgetting the format of my tally, I'll just tell you I didn't use anything that day.

Day #4
I have no DSi cuz I'm bored. I'm sleepy and still sick I actually went to school! However, I didn't like it at all. My throat tickled and I usually coughed like a maniac. I'm so flustered at the fact that I was not getting ANY BETTER. GAHHH. I'm so anxious about praise night tommorow! :)

Day #5
STILL SICK. How come its so collldddd????? Brrrrrr. My parents told me I kinda hafta go to urgent care now. Blargh.... where sick ppl r :) Anyways, I was so bored today and I started server editing, but controlled myself. YAY for me anyways. :))) Hope tommorow is lovely. I MISSED KEVIN'S TESTIMONIAL, luckily, I got a hardcopy of what he was gonna say.

at the end of Day#5

Facebook 5/5
Hulu/blargh 3/5
Youtube 4/5


Dec 3, 2009

Day #3 Goddd plz help me

My throat is so hoarse and it's so hard to concentrate. >.< Owell, suck it up and let God deal with them? I hope I feel better tommorow. To do list [I was gone for 2 days so far boys and gals] ----------------------------------------------------- Copy 2 TIH [I despise my history teacher for TIH :P] Take French Test [Haven't studied that well *-*] Science Test [Easy A++++ ;D, not that I care Science is sooo boring] Vocab Test [altruism, benign, civility, exemplary, benefactor, humanitarian, rectify, amicable, indulge, BOUNTIFUL :P] MAKEUP FOR MATH GRRR I HATE GEOMETRY >< nah, geometry is totally fun with a pretty chill teacher :) ---------------------------------------------------- BEAT PHOENIX WRIGHT 2 IN BED TODAY AND I GOT THE GOOD SCENARIO cuz like i read online *oh i got the bad turnout* and i was like what is the bad turnout? Sadness drenched me. I saw this video on youtube (YES I KNOW I KNOW YOUTUBE that was cuz i turned off Leechblock Ruth >:[)

Okay enoughfff of that

Facebook 3/3
Youtube 2/3 -.- i'm such a bad person with leechblock so unfaithful
Hulu 1/3 [its cuz a new show came out. i better stop using hulu.

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess i can't use the comp tommorw. BE STRICT ON LEON.

Day #2 ALREADY WITH THE GIVE-UP? [Late one day, apologize ;D]

Yeh, I'm still sick, but [speaking in today's tense btw] I looked back on yesterday [12/2] and I hadn't even talked to God. Nor have I even read the Bible. -.-" All I could find was the excuse, I'm too sickkk to rreeeaddd smallll texxxttt. "sigh" Anyways, I was tooo lazy until I remember. THE INTERNET. Now I have a headache.

Facebook 2/2
Youtube 2/2
Hulu ect.ect. 1/2

@_@ Stupid Hulu. [wait I meant myself.]

Dec 1, 2009

Day #1 of Facebook/Youtube/ServerEdit Fasting

He's coming to get me. Yesterday I was fine, today I'm so sick. My head is spinning around and my throat now has a hoarse cough. Everywhere hurts :p But still, we hafta rejoice to the LORD for he is building my immune system :P
Okay anyways, I stopped using Facebook/Youtube/Server Editing for a whole month. It will last from 12~1 [Today] to 12~31. I will report later about a prayer, or such blah. Anyways, i'm gonna try to keep a daily update [except for the week i am gone] on hows i'm doing :D

Nov 29, 2009

Darren the Fahtty


Aneeways, I'm so tired today. I didn't get my daily dose of Phoenix Wright and i did absolutely nothing today. It was so horrible. :P Owell, anyways, remember we have to give thanks. :) Okay anyways, I realized that being thankful is just more than just saying the simple words of thank you :O its like expressing gratitude that you are really thankful for being on the earth. Hmmmm it takes some pondering to think. :)
I knows that i dids not writes on my blogs on :)
Oh anyways, I am at Darren's house and I just saw him loose a bid on ebay. I roflmaoed. Okay anyways, after i roflmaoed i looked at the final bid. 180.00 for dented cymbal and he wanted to bid 127.99. It was a fat n ugly ppiece of trash, but he still wanted it. how revolutionary. i knows rite? Darren's being a fatty and he's doing stuff. I'm falling asleep soon.
its been awhile :D expect great things from a awkward boi

Nov 27, 2009

thanksgiving briefing.

yay for thanksgiving
it was an awesome day
dawning, jimmy, micahel c, chirs, michael s, johana and others were there
yAY 4 excITEMEnts
how was your tahnksgiving?
what r u thankful for?
i'm thankful for my computer and my dsi and my parents :3
leave a comment down below yay

Nov 22, 2009

Perhaps the preconcieved misconception of all philosiphies combined to form a fragrant fledling which flails under famine

"Perhaps the preconcieved misconception of all philosiphies combined to form a fragrant fledling which flails under famine includes the idea that frisky funhouses flamed the fruity flounders out of there fishbowl and then, leaving flakes, the floppy platapii ate the platonic plates of north east asia. Once again, I must say of the importance of juice."

try saying that 10 times fast

i haven't been posting as of late, and its because of my private server development. its going pretty badly rite now :[

Nov 15, 2009

And the sad part is...

Sigh. its so late already. i'm not gonna use proper punct. on this post. its a quickie and i just feel kind of depressed about smth. have u ever had a friend that is way out of whack and you can't stop him? :/
hmmm how do you help a person like that :O
maybe praying will work
please leave suggestions
he is a christian, or so to "say"

Nov 13, 2009

Astral Projection

I have astral projection! Would you believe me? Why not. But seriously, would you?
If you told me the future or make a prediction.
LYING is always the easy path out of things, yet, there is another thing called guilt. Kill it an your away scott-free. So anyways, I was hanging with one of my mates the other day and I told him [this story is just and example] I have seen someone die before. Shocked, he stood up and asked me how he died. I said somebody drilled open his head and poured his brains out. ew i know. As disgusted as he was he asked more questions and more lies spewed from my mouth. By the end of the day, my little lie turned into: (REMEMBER THIS IS JUST A FAKE STORY :P) Leon killed his cousin and sliced his head open and ate his brains. These are how snowball lies are made. A simple lie starts out with a whole festering crowd of people building on your lie. Now there are OBVIOUS ways to stop it. [THIS WAS REQUESTED BY A FRIEND)
Now choose what level you are in:
| [BRAVE] | [SHY] |
|                 |             |
|                 |             |
|                 |             |

If you are brave:
SIMPLE SOLUTION. COME OUT CLEAN. Just tell them, "Oh I was lying about that whole thing by the way." Joke, kid around, make fun of yourself do whatever to cover it up. If it is in a more serious condition though, just say you were lying. Admit! :P

NOT SIMPLE SOLUTION. Spread too far? Just keep denying it :[, or tell everyone your joking. You are GOING to have a bad reputation for lying the longer you wait.

WORSE SOLUTION. Muffle your heart. Keep it all inside. Be shameful, and feel guilty. If you get asked about it, and you want a change of heart, look at the NOT SIMPLE SOLUTION.

If you are shy:
SIMPLE SOLUTION: Do not fret if its the first person. Just make sure it doesn't spread. Say something like just kidding and joke about it. Try not to think about it, but if you feel guilt, say it. Don't wait.

NOT SIMPLE SOLUTION. Gone out of hand among your friends? The only way is to correct/ or admit. I know its hard when your shy, but you need to understand that a bigg burden can be placed upon you. Psychologically, here's my flow chart of the mind of a really timid person.

[I'm telling a lie]>>[I feel guilty] >> [I'm too shy]
           V                           V                                V (Come Clean)
[Who cares, I mean]   [I must confess] > [I can tell a close friend]
[am I hurting any1?]                                             V
          V                                                              [Problem solved!]
[Trouble arises]

Ask your best friend, or ask someone for more help.

Heard of White lies before?
Aren't they HELPING people, aren't they GOOD? Can we erase this little bit from the commandment?
In short, that's saying DO WE HAVE TO FOLLOW ALL THE RULES?
It may benefit ppl, but here's my arguement.

Time for the up to front text:

Deut. 5:20 - You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.

Yep, that's true. Okay, now what else does scripture say?

Prov. 6:16-19 - These six things the Lord hates, yes, seven are an abomination to Him: a proud look, a lying tongue, hands that shed innocent blood, a heart that devises wicked plans, feet that are swift in running to evil, a false witness who speaks lies, and one who sows discord among brethren.

Notice how he mentions "lying" twice. God dislikes lying much? No, God hates lying. We are not perfect, it is in our nature to lie. I'm not saying we must lie, but it is defininetly in our nature, and if your not the one to break it who is? Our society has taken lying and broken it down to white lies to help other people. GOD NEVER LIES "eternal life which God, who cannot lie, promised before time began" (Titus 1:2) And we should DEFINETLY try to do the same. I'm sorry i'm spelling definetly wrong somany times. :P

People who lie will not have a fun time lying because "false witnesses will perish" (Proverbs 23:28.... i think) and we should try our best not to be false witnesses.
Remember now, when your lying, your hurting, and when your hurting one of God's child, God will be sad. Sadface is bad Un-sadface is good. Give good a happyface :)

P.S. I don't have Astral Projection ;S

Nov 12, 2009

sticknotes on my laptop: quick post

:[ gahhhhhh i forgot to email mac that i couldn't do a/v
:[ gahhhhhh >.< ohwell
I HAVE A FRENCH TEST TOMMORW and I didn't study. I'm so dead. My grade is dead already. :/
Yah for failing french students.

Nov 11, 2009


********!! BEFORE YOU SKIP THIS POST PLZZ READ IT!!!!!*********
Thank you. TWLOHA is a campaign to basically make life more peaceful.
Hear the sad story of a girl named Renee. I'll post it here:
Pedro the Lion is loud in the speakers, and the city waits just outside our open windows. She sits and sings, legs crossed in the passenger seat, her pretty voice hiding in the volume. Music is a safe place and Pedro is her favorite. It hits me that she won't see this skyline for several weeks, and we will be without her. I lean forward, knowing this will be written, and I ask what she'd say if her story had an audience. She smiles. "Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."
I would rather write her a song, because songs don't wait to resolve, and because songs mean so much to her. Stories wait for endings, but songs are brave things bold enough to sing when all they know is darkness. These words, like most words, will be written next to midnight, between hurricane and harbor, as both claim to save her.
Renee is 19. When I meet her, cocaine is fresh in her system. She hasn't slept in 36 hours and she won't for another 24. It is a familiar blur of coke, pot, pills and alcohol. She has agreed to meet us, to listen and to let us pray. We ask Renee to come with us, to leave this broken night. She says she'll go to rehab tomorrow, but she isn't ready now. It is too great a change. We pray and say goodbye and it is hard to leave without her.
She has known such great pain; haunted dreams as a child, the near-constant presence of evil ever since. She has felt the touch of awful naked men, battled depression and addiction, and attempted suicide. Her arms remember razor blades, fifty scars that speak of self-inflicted wounds. Six hours after I meet her, she is feeling trapped, two groups of "friends" offering opposite ideas. Everyone is asleep. The sun is rising. She drinks long from a bottle of liquor, takes a razor blade from the table and locks herself in the bathroom. She cuts herself, using the blade to write "FUCK UP" large across her left forearm.
The nurse at the treatment center finds the wound several hours later. The center has no detox, names her too great a risk, and does not accept her. For the next five days, she is ours to love. We become her hospital and the possibility of healing fills our living room with life. It is unspoken and there are only a few of us, but we will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to meet her needs, to write love on her arms.
She is full of contrast, more alive and closer to death than anyone I've known, like a Johnny Cash song or some theatre star. She owns attitude and humor beyond her 19 years, and when she tells me her story, she is humble and quiet and kind, shaped by the pain of a hundred lifetimes. I sit privileged but breaking as she shares. Her life has been so dark yet there is some soft hope in her words, and on consecutive evenings, I watch the prettiest girls in the room tell her that she's beautiful. I think it's God reminding her.
I've never walked this road, but I decide that if we're going to run a five-day rehab, it is going to be the coolest in the country. It is going to be rock and roll. We start with the basics; lots of fun, too much Starbucks and way too many cigarettes
Thursday night she is in the balcony for Band Marino, Orlando's finest. They are indie-folk-fabulous, a movement disguised as a circus. She loves them and she smiles when I point out the A&R man from Atlantic Europe, in town from London just to catch this show.

She is in good seats when the Magic beat the Sonics the next night, screaming like a lifelong fan with every Dwight Howard dunk. On the way home, we stop for more coffee and books, Blue Like Jazz and (Anne Lamott's) Travelling Mercies.

On Saturday, the Taste of Chaos tour is in town and I'm not even sure we can get in, but doors do open and minutes after parking, we are on stage for Thrice, one of her favorite bands. She stands ten feet from the drummer, smiling constantly. It is a bright moment there in the music, as light and rain collide above the stage. It feels like healing. It is certainly hope.

Sunday night is church and many gather after the service to pray for Renee, this her last night before entering rehab. Some are strangers but all are friends tonight. The prayers move from broken to bold, all encouraging. We're talking to God but I think as much, we're talking to her, telling her she's loved, saying she does not go alone. One among us knows her best. Ryan sits in the corner strumming an acoustic guitar, singing songs she's inspired.

After church our house fills with friends, there for a few more moments before goodbye. Everyone has some gift for her, some note or hug or piece of encouragement. She pulls me aside and tells me she would like to give me something. I smile surprised, wondering what it could be. We walk through the crowded living room, to the garage and her stuff.

She hands me her last razor blade, tells me it is the one she used to cut her arm and her last lines of cocaine five nights before. She's had it with her ever since, shares that tonight will be the hardest night and she shouldn't have it. I hold it carefully, thank her and know instantly that this moment, this gift, will stay with me. It hits me to wonder if this great feeling is what Christ knows when we surrender our broken hearts, when we trade death for life.

As we arrive at the treatment center, she finishes: "The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."

I have watched life come back to her, and it has been a privilege. When our time with her began, someone suggested shifts but that is the language of business. Love is something better. I have been challenged and changed, reminded that love is that simple answer to so many of our hardest questions. Don Miller says we're called to hold our hands against the wounds of a broken world, to stop the bleeding. I agree so greatly.

We often ask God to show up. We pray prayers of rescue. Perhaps God would ask us to be that rescue, to be His body, to move for things that matter. He is not invisible when we come alive. I might be simple but more and more, I believe God works in love, speaks in love, is revealed in our love. I have seen that this week and honestly, it has been simple: Take a broken girl, treat her like a famous princess, give her the best seats in the house. Buy her coffee and cigarettes for the coming down, books and bathroom things for the days ahead. Tell her something true when all she's known are lies. Tell her God loves her. Tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom, tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. All these things are true.

We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.

I have learned so much in one week with one brave girl. She is alive now, in the patience and safety of rehab, covered in marks of madness but choosing to believe that God makes things new, that He meant hope and healing in the stars. She would ask you to remember. 

....we were never meant to do life alone. 
                              The vision is that community and hope and help would replace secrets and silence.  
The vision is people putting down guns and blades and bottles. 
                 The vision is that we can reduce the suicide rate in America and around the world.
                                 The vision is that we would learn what it means to love our friends, and that we would love ourselves enough to get the help we need.

You need to know that rescue is possible, that freedom is possible, that God is still in the business of redemption.  

Directly cited from TWLOHA. Please participate. Show people that you love and care for them. Show people that there is a way out, even though it may not be the easiest way out. 

To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.

*****To Write Love On Her Arms Day is a day where anyone can write the words love on their arms, to support those who are fighting against depression and those who are trying to recovering. On this day, just write love on your arms, and show it off, other people will ask why you have love written on your arms, and you tell them you are supporting to write love on her arms day, and how its benefiting a non profit organization helping stop depression, and make love the movement ♥

The vision is that we actually believe these things…

You were created to love and be loved. You were meant to live life in relationship with other people, to know and be known. You need to know that your story is important and that you're part of a bigger story. You need to know that your life matters.
Write <3 of someone's arms. Show that you care. Show that they are loved.  



Who knew you could've been a hero?
Who's your childhood superhero?
Was it Batman, Spiderman, or [for the aznkids] Goku?
Did you imagine YOURSELF as a superhero?
I bet not.

But luckily I don't bet, so I'm going to tell you about heroes
What is a hero?
–noun, plural -roes; for 5 also -ros.
1. a man of distinguished courage or ability, admired for his brave deeds and noble qualities.
2. a person who, in the opinion of others, has heroic qualities or has performed a heroic act and is regarded as a model or ideal: He was a local hero when he saved the drowning child.

Now ponder on this:
->> stop influencing your younger siblings
though it may seem fun to swear, cuss, smoke, yell at your parents, and other stuff that you may normally do to confront your parents, don't do it! your little siblings may see/hear you do what you do.
Okay, its really common and hard to see, but try not to be really rash, be more peaceful .

Hero by Superchic[k]

No one talks to him about how he lives
He thinks that the choices he makes are just his
Doesn't know he's the leader with the way he behaves
And others will follow the choices he's made
He lives on the edge, he's old enough to decide
His brother who wants to be him is just nine
He can do what he wants because it's his right
The choices he makes change a nine-year-old's life

->> end bullying now!
make sure your not part of the problem. there is no borderline. there is people of the problem and people of the solution. if you do not intervene, then you are part of the problem. gets it? :] hope you will make the right choice guys!

No one sits with him, he doesn't fit in
But we feel like we do when we make fun of him
Cause you want to belong, do you go along?
Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong
It's not like you hate him or want him to die
But maybe he goes home and thinks suicide
Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side
And a kindness from you might have saved his life

its the easiest thing to do :)

->> spread God's love
It's the warmest most fussiest thing. not even apple cider could hit it. :O

So basically, pray to God to be a hero, because you can't be all hero alone. To be fair, your more like an accompalice NOT IN CRIMe. but like a accompaniment to God. :O
So yeah
go do your hmwk

when i write:


x means love
and lahyon is the english way of saying Leon
My L.A. teacher made it up, she's cool :O

Nov 9, 2009


"I'd like it served with a platter of salad as a sidedish."

Today was so horrible. I felt like total poo but I guess that what happens when you can't sleep that well. I've been feeling pretty bad and my throat hurts alot. I went to the rheumatologist and I'm still feeling under the weather. Hm.... 130 cups of hot water with honey still doesn't soothe your throat does it. :p

Yay stalk me yay!

I AM SO ANGRY AT MYSELF. My immune system should just be normal like everyone else's. Owell, complaining gets no-one nowhere. :P
i missed
-> revolutionary war test
-> week 5 vocab test
-> A FRENCH QUIZ. noooooo
-> and a whole bunch of physical excercise stuff :P

I'm pretty sad that I got another D on a test. Its probably [again] because i didn't explain THOROUGHLY. gah....
KAREN FENG SAYS 95 IS LOW!!!!! Karen if your reading this: you got my hopes up that you failed with me :/
veterans day on wednesday. I'm looking forward to that xD
Wait, I gotta study for the tests XD
ITS REALLYHARD TO CONCENTRATE when your coughing so blargh. xD
Owell... i guess i can make a all-nighter. And when I say all-nighter, I mean 45 minutes of studying xD
YAY! I got that all out of my system. I HATE BEING SICK :[

2) ALBATROSS [Main Topic]
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–noun 1. any of several large, web-footed sea birds of the family Diomedeidae that have the ability to remain aloft for long periods. Compare wandering albatross.
2. a seemingly inescapable moral or emotional burden, as of guilt or responsibility.

I feel so tired of my chronic sickness causing like little colds throughout the year. gah. I wonder why I'm ranting on this.


Sorry for the big time gap between posts. During that epoch I have been coughing. :)
My novel coming out is

Nov 8, 2009

dear diary today was a sad day

so i tried to begin writing a novel yet i got reader's block on the first 6 paras
so i need your help
vote @ the poll :] thankss
i'm trying to set it to be like a "halloweeen beginning"

sick + more

missed school play
at home sick
sick [got worse :P]
still sick

have fun stalking my life

Nov 1, 2009

weekend update Oct 31 ~ Nov 1 [cheuu lyk tis foo']

DO YOU FEEL LIKE DANCING? Haha. I had an AMAZING WEEKEND. Anyway, this is my weekend update starting with introduction:
I feel obliged to do this. I haven't posted in years. I need to write something I guess, but I also want to keep like a "quiet time journal" on my blog. I can write what I want to read each night for Quiet Times. To start off, let's talk about Saturday.
Harvest Night:
Arriving at church at 4:30 was really exciting. I ran into the church carrying boxes and stuff and started setting up. At around 5:00, Matthew came brining a lotus and some demented kiwis. As we stacked up to start out "Reach inside the box and guess what it is" game, I tried to make everything perfect, though it was hard because we were forced to move quite a few times. There was on specific box that Matthew wanted that had two holes. Its sole purpose? To scare the living daylights out of people from AFC. Oh hilarity in a box. Anyways, after scaring Helen, I felt discomfort, yet Matthew felt a sense of uprising Victory. Throughout the whole night, I felt sick, and I had a head ache. It seemed like it was okay, not to boring, yet not to shabby. Our station was an instant hit, and I was rushed with the children's apathetic care of the damage of our veggies and fruit. Though it was fun, I got tired after like 45 minutes. I got so sleeeeppyy after a while and my friend Kevin took over. I just took pictures, got my face painted, and made sure [almost] everything was in order. That day was also my Dad's b-day, but I just sang Happy Birthday to him like a drone. I don't know why, but I just can't accept that my parents are SUPPOSED TO EMBARASS YOU. However, the big slide was amazing smashing and ever horrible fun. It was so steep and wet I got scared but it was fun. :) I only went down there once though. Psh. Pathetic. I'm tired like usualy after the slide and I wanted to take a picture. [I felt soooo embarassed here] I told one of Timmy Zhang's friends to join us and I called the wrong name. I'm sorry Ryan... or was it.. psh. Continuing on, I MET BRYAN NGUYEN :DDDD he tried to kill me cuz he was being NINJA. also we made up at the end and we huggies. Hmmmm anything else........ Cotton Candy machine was downright gross at the end, Victor, Michael, and Yuqing had cotton floss poo all over their eyes and hair. I don't know why I started laughing. :) FACE PAINTING WAS SO INTENSE. I got a cloud, an angel, and a froggy. The angel was rlly cool cuz its halo was like knife sharp ;D thx ANNE. I had SOOOO Much fun. But I did invite a friend *ALEXSHAN* but he decided not to come. Owell, I'm not the boss of him. Shoutout to Alex: I hope you had an awesome Halloween :) Sigh. I'm tired from that day still.
Strain Your Neck!:
I strained my neck TWICE this week. How? Sigh, during French, we were taking an oral test and I decided to relax before I took it. I bent my neck backwards and when I got up again to answer my freind's question. I couldn't turn to him. My neck hurted soooo mucho. I didn't get to see a rheumotologist, but I did see a pediatrician. :D Yay for pediatricians!!! I had to go home early one day because of my Neck. I couldn't focus. It felt better gradually through the week, until Sunday. I leaned my head back to say HI to Laraine. Worst Idea Ever. It wasn't because it was Laraine, but it was actually because I had to bend my neck backwards. Sigh, I got it strained again. I also feel sick. :[
KAH;LKDHGA;LJKDSHJ;HA;JHJD;KLSAHG;KDSH;KJAHJDSKHFADSASDLFAKLSDHFJKHSKJAHFSJHAJKDSHFJSK i feel sadnessfull overwhelm me. Maybe I should try to comprimise. I need help. Hmmmmmm. Anyone can give me an answer. OHBTW, Oregon is mission trip so yeahh....
Lamppost Note:
Anyways, I started writing a new book, and [I'm sorry this post is so long] I just asked Ruth to read it. She died I think. [metaphorically >:P] haha anyways, Here is goes. I'm only giving you a sneak peak of the characters. HIGHLIGHT TO READ OR SKIP.
Grace Ouyang Wang – Weather Control
Amy Wakanashi – Rapid Cell Regeneration
Milo Jackson
Simian L. Jay – Water manipulation
Hagaroki Kim – Super speed
Hideki Nishimoto – Terrakenesis
Cynthia Wang – Butterfly Mimicry
Aries King Nathaniels – Persuasion
Penelope Yang – Dehydration
Macy Grain – Cloning
Helen (The Black Witch) – Resurrection

Okay, anyways, expect debut on Decemberish. :) ITS WAY BETTER THAN PAPER HEARTS :D
11/1/09 Sermon Message:
BE GOD'S BRIDEGROOM. We are so unfaithful, we are like prostitutes. Hmmmmmmmm I went on and pondered this and I really agree. We need to stop wandering from God. I should go take a look at sermon notes. If you want to download the sermon, please refer to this link. Anyways, SERMON NOTES. brb. back. PASSAGES: HOSEA 3 :) its probably the shortest book in the Bible with only 5 verses. Anyways:
1) The Image of a Bridegroom
We are God's Bridegroom. God wants an intimate relationship w/ us like Godhead. Father <3 Son <3 Holy Spirit <3 Father. Kindagetit???
2) The Reality Sin
Make Commitments for the Lord AHEAD OF TIME :)
Read 2 King 14:23~29 as a note for smth.
3) The Prince of Love
-no notes-
HARD WAY OUT: Mature in Christ and find the way and meditate on it. Follow it even with hardships.

<3333 YOU GUYS
TO ALEX: wish you can come to yg

Oct 29, 2009

Imbecilic Paper Cut-Outs (New Book)

Ruth, sorry, I still like abilities. Though this one will be WAY more calmer. Don't worry, its not gonna be a soap drama either. Here it goes.
Okay the book is called Imbecilic Paper Cut-Outs, and I'm pretty sure you'll find out why later.

Imbecilic Paper Cut-Outs
Imbecilic Paper Cut-Outs
                I ran away from home because I was sick of my parents telling me what to do. Study for the SATs? Seriously? I’m only in my sophomore year. Everybody knows me as the procrastinator for a reason. I don’t care about school? What’s the answer to life? Nobody knows! I guess you have to ask what was the question again? Anyways, I just feel like crap today. I was yelled at for being too “questioning” of my parent’s “authority.” Despite the fact that my parents are both working for the government of this small city of Cupertino, I really think my parents are people who are worthless, and cannot do anything. I really wish that I can just hop to another family. I have had enough. Now I know what you’re thinking, this bratty kid wants everything to be perfect. I am not a perfectionist; I am just a simple 15 year old boy who thinks he is lost in this world. This paradox of money, fortune and success really makes me irritated. I wish I can just leave this city. My clique at school is just a bunch of nerds thrown together and I just have to wait for them to stop talking about online games. I guess my life is below average, I mean there are some ups in my life. Hmmm, I’m grateful for my bed, my blankets, my backpack, actually, don’t these things come with family package? My parents are jerks. I ran away today, but I want to be out for too long. I mean I still care about my grades but seriously, failing isn’t that important. School doesn’t really reflect how smart you are; one of my friends told me. Now if ever my friends make a remark about school, specifically on how it is not really needed, I repeat it to my parents. I guess I’m the kind of person who wants to reproach someone for things they can’t change. Am I also a jerk like my parents? No, I can’t be. Wait, what?
                Anyways I ran away to the park nearby. I love the crispy coolness of the shivers sent down my spine in fall. Not to cold, not to hot either. In fact, I think that the park is an amazing place to run away to. I live near one so it doesn’t matter. The park is called Square One Park I think. I still don’t know why. I wearily sat down on one of the benches and focused on what happened at school today. Nothing. Like always. If there was just one speck of interestingness in my life, I’d spam it on my friend’s walls on Facebook. But wait, they don’t have one because they want to do well in school. My life’s all a mess, and I’m too lazy to clean it up. Actually, I retract my previous statement. I am willing to clean it up, but it will be messy in a week again. Now I could be popular by the clothes I wore or the amount of sports I play, but I choose not to. Why? I just think that there is more in life than to be popular. The green bench I now noticed wobbled a lot and I turned my back around to see why. I looked over only to see a girl doing the same thing that I just did, ponder about things. I decided to be friendly and asked, “Hey, are you alright?” And as soon as she turned her head, her warm smile captivated me.
                He is an odd boy. Why did he bother saying “Hi” to me? Hmmm, I guess I should just be friendly. Go on Jessica, play along, start small talking, then end with the usual, I need to use the bathroom excuse. I started speaking, “Yeah, you?” He replied with a sad face, and that really made me sad. He was pretty cute I guess, he had a spiky asymmetrical hair which I thought was funny. His tan skin offset his bad hair to make him look pretty scary and bad. He seems friendly enough. “I’m doing fine, rough life isn’t it?”
                I was in total agreement with him, and I saw where he was coming from, and so I added, “Gee, I totally agree. By the way, I’m Jessica.” The boy looked at me and said, “Kenneth.” We shook hands, and I felt a total sugar rush, either that or I had been awakened. I was glad to meet him and continued, “My family, oh my goodness, fights every day, this and that. It’s boring. My family is like speaking different languages, I speak English, and some French, Spanish, Japanese, and such, yet, they speak Burmese, and well, different languages!” I let it all out, ranted him about my family. His spiky hair distracted me once in awhile and also the price tag on his clothing, 67 smackers for a crappy brand name sweatshirt. Not worth it. He then started, “You’re in like in the same exact situation that I’m in. Cool.” Kenneth smiled and I couldn’t help but notice I made a friend today.
                “Earthquake?” Jessica and I panicked as we hid under the table. The table was sturdy, yet I didn’t think that it would be strapping enough to keep down, so I grabbed her hand and dashed out into the open. I could tell Jessica was frightened as she yelled at me to let her go. I felt like I was older than her, and I should take full responsibility of other people especially girls. We ran into a green pasture and then I saw the culprit of the earthquake. It was actually a man who was controlling the earth. I thought I was seeing things again, and I asked Jessica, “Hey do you see a,” Jessica, already staring at the mysterious man coming down said, “Yeah, what is he doing?”  Are we insane? But no, I wasn’t mistaken. Though he was far away, I saw him open his hand, his palm facing up, and then made a fist and punched the air. Suddenly, all of the park benches crumbled and a crack in the Earth made it obvious he was inhumane. I felt challenged, and compelled to tell him to stop, yet, I decided not to. “Run!” I pushed Jessica down the hill we were going down, and I think the man saw us run.
                Kenneth is a good guy, but I think he already thinks he has control over me. But anyways, why is that man trying to destroy the park? This world is just downright depressing. I felt so tired already, I was wearing jeans and a polo. Converse shoes are also really annoying to run in, so I told him, “We don’t have to run, we just need to sneak out of the park!”
                It wasn’t Kenneth who replied, but around us, I am pretty sure that it was my imagination, but I noticed somebody said, “I think your underestimating us.” “Who are you?” Kenneth swung his arm into his pocket and dug out a sharp knife. He almost slashed me, so I got furious, but I decided to keep it in till this madness was over. Time to step back into reality, “Who are you?” I repeated Kenneth’s question and I said, “Where are you?” We stood under the shade of five large palm trees and we heard an extremely horrible giggle, “Right behind you,” and I had no idea who “you” was, but I have a bad feeling..
                I lunged towards Jessica, implanting my knife at the mysterious woman who had long brown hair all tied back. She wore a black spandex suit, and she looked like one of those girl spies in movies. As I lunged at her, she suddenly disappeared and she yelled, “You crazy boy, I’m going to punish you!” She sounded really seductive and that got on my nerves. I just started swinging my knife crazily around me and came back to my fighting stance when Jessica yelled, “Dude, above your head!” I felt a strong wind as I hurried away from the spot I was and looked up only to see a sharp stick that was about to implant me. A few cuss words came out of nowhere, and the invisible girl just lay on the ground. She turned visible, and I approached her, and told her, “That was dangerous, what are you trying to do?” The girl grunted, “Kill you.” She swung the stick at me like a scared and then her eyes shifted from glaring me down to looking at Jessica. “You…” The agent girl ran towards Jessica, and turned invisible and tried to stab her, but Jessica ran towards my direction, and I saw where the girl went. Her stick gave it away. She was running behind Jessica, and luckily, I ran to her and pushed her away. Angry thoughts and adrenalin filled my mind. I didn’t know what happened, yet all I knew was that I saved Jessica. Jessica recovered and looked at the girl who was lying on the ground. “What are you doing… what?” Suddenly, all of the girl’s bones looked like they became soft flowing water jellies and she became squishy. The girl was dead, all her bones had disappeared, and I took a closer look. “What happened?”
                What a weird girl. First she is a normal human and then she’s a pile of skin, muscle, and organs. I guess that she was like a robot who was supposed to melt, but it doesn’t seem like it. She has real skin, and such. Then I gasped, “Kenneth, did you kill her?” Kenneth looked at me, “With a push?” He smirked and said, “What did you do?”
                ME? I repeated that out loud. “I didn’t touch her, however you did.” I screamed at him, backing off to make sure he wouldn’t do the same to me. “Yes Jessica, I just took all her bones because I was jealous of them. In fact…” he stopped as I glared him down. “How old are you?” I spewed. He crossed his arms, “15 shorty. Respect your…” “I’m 18” I triumphantly told him as he looked downwards, avoiding my glaredown, “but listen to me. Did you kill her?”
                “No.” He answered concisely and mimicked my naggy voice. I saw that a man was approaching us, and he was the same man who was controlling the earth. “Who are you?” I yelled. He only smirked. His hair was in a messy afro and he wore an old raggedy shirt that looked like a tae kwon do uniform. It was yellow though, worn, and had stains on it. He was taller than both Kenneth and I. I told him to run, and dragged Kenneth with me, and suddenly, we were enclosed by three gigantic walls. Made of pure stone, they looked like they were impossible to get out of. And so suddenly, I thought I need to save the boy. He was mediocre, yet he was really nice, so I told the man, “Stay away. We don’t want trouble.”
                As soon as the man opened his lips, the ground started to shake. “I don’t want trouble. I want your powers.” He rushed towards me, and suddenly, I just wimped out. I covered my face with my two of my hands and I screamed, yet nothing ever hit me.
                I fell down with a great tumble and the man tried to kill me. His fists turned into stone, and he beat me, and I felt so many burns, and the feeling of blood tricking down my face, until I realized that I had that feeling again. The adrenalin feeling, and I soon put my hands on him. This time I felt it, I felt his bones. They were dissolving, and the man was screaming I let go of him, and he was half dead already. I looked at him, and put my hands on the dying man, who now was laying prostrate on the ground. I asked, “You kay?” I saw his bones. Paper thin bones, and it was almost as if I had x-ray vision. I just wanted to test if I was seeing things, and stepped on his arms. Two bones cracked and I stepped back and gave a shriek. “Jessica come here,” and I as I turned to look at Jessica, she was no longer opaque, but a transparent figure. “Um… Jessica?”

Oct 28, 2009

Graphire 4.5

It's like etching the figures in your dream. :D
Display: (the prettier ones are made by Ruth)

Display 1: A telekasylph in human form cautions himself from Rusario the  Bringer of Peace. The telekasylph uses telekenesis to form daggers from the opal around him and threatens Rusario. Being cautioned by the telekasylph's move, he withdraws his sword, waiting for the epic skirmish to begin, ;D

Display 2: Its about sunrise in the village of Hitomoshi. As the sun rises, the devil of weather creeps out of the crevices of the village. She brings great distress with thunderclouds and such. Angeliceen, the bringer of dark aurora sweeps the village with a musty odor and heavy dark clouds. Swistane, builds ice crystals and kills people who dare enter.

Oct 24, 2009

10 Fingers and 90 more that I may have cut off [Part 1]

Here are 100 things that you might not know about me:
1. Black is my favourite colour.
2. I spell color as colour sometimes.
3. White is my second favourite colour.
4. Silver is my third favourite colour.
5. 알로에 means 'Aloe' and it my favorite drink.
6. I hate playing Halo 1, 2, 3.
7. I still think that Red was my favourite Pokemon game.
8. When people call me morbid, I try to deny it a lot.
9. I imagine myself sleeping on clouds.
10. I like anything doughy and squishy and edible.
11. I have watched 3,000+ Anime Episodes.
12. I have read 45,000+ Manga Chapters.
13. I take French.
14. I used to take Spanish, but then thought it was overpopular.
15. I don't like people who are popular.
16. I want to learn how to play bass.
17. Improvising on the piano is very fun.
18. Crying is something that I think everyone should do almost every time their happy. Why? It shows how they are willing show that even though life is hard to live, its really easy to make the best out of it. Also, that's my trademark.
19. If I'm not joyful, bouncy, bubbly, happy, and amazingly jumpy, then i'm emo
20. when im emo i dont care about punctuation
21. I like soft toys.
22. My birthday is on April 13.
23. First life lesson: Friends are hard to come by
24. Second life lesson: Stop acting like what you love. (ex: I feel like a squishy toy. If I keep like acting like one, I won't be able to repair myself.
25. I can cry easily.
26. Rock collections are amazing to me, yet I don't have one for myself.
27. My best friends are the ones living.
28. Hating people is not what I do.
29. I'm extremely independent.
30. I'm unbelievably ticklish, poking is self defense, punching is playful slaughter.
31. Jesus is my childhood superhero.
33. Monotone is fun, yet yelling in monotone isn't monotone anymore.
34. Adrenalin shocking is AHMAZING.
35. I do not remember my first home which had two stories.
36. I used to go to Challenger.
37. I finished the Bible before.
38. I drank 2 gallons nonstop once. (I took breaths though)
39. I DO NOT ABUSE MY A/V PRIVLEGES (I'm on the comp and Timmy's on Facebook playing restruant city)
40. Sad things make me happier and happy things make me sadder.
41. Kevin Yang is an amazzing Pokemon Battler.
42. My UU team: Drifblim, Milktank and others.... SHHHHH DOn'T TELL KEVIN.
43. I <3 My Church :D
44. My savior can move the mountains.
45. I really want an electric car.
46. I don't use a cellphone and I have only texted once in my life (OHHHH YOU KIDS ARE PROBABLY AWESTRUCK)
47. Forgiving is easy for me.
48. I have arthritis.
49. I see fake rain and fake weather all the time. (If it's cloudy, I might see snow. I live in a place where it doesn't snow)
50. I like to write horror novels.

Oct 23, 2009

Leon, why are you so grumpy?

i don't feel like posting. i really don't feel like doing anything. i just need to be alone for a few days. I don't want to talk either. I really don't feel to thinking and i just want to be lonely. sometimes i need space. sometimes i am really sensitive about the littlest things that happen. the first cut is not always the deepest. i really feels like being persecuted the first time is a sad experience. but there is much more that goes on with that. i'll tell you what is it like. being persecuted is a cloud. now the cloud is going to rain down and dissappear, yet form a cloud again in the near future. But, what if, more clouds join the cloud, and forms a big cloud. the rain could last forever. i hope not. i just wish i had someone that i can hug right now. Kevin's right. why am i such a nobrained person, of course i need to be loved. am i doubting God? no but i am believing that i will get used to this soon. if you really want to make fun of me, be mean to me, pick on me, yell at me for mistreating you, pointing out every sin i make, now is the time. its fine, i experience at school. my stomach hurts. i need take my meds probably. i'm seeing things again.trying to start a cheerful conversation is a bad idea probably.

Oct 21, 2009

Step in Line

You step in line, you've got a lot to prove.

Oct 20, 2009


1. awesome play time with shennanigans. i'm going to fail the test
2. had an anti-bully talk, not that eye opening
3. BOMBED my geo test. :(
4. Realizing that I bombed my geo test.
5. Virus Overtakes my whole system
6. Saratoga comes over
7. God is in myss prescence :)
Oh btw, new book stuff will be released soon <3

[<# heart FAIL]<< that one is for Dawning and Elena :3 <3u

Oct 18, 2009

Answered: YAY FOR HUGS

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♥◘§: ruth

Ruth Zhang is online.
♥◘§: :)

Ruth: hi

♥◘§: are you there?
can you help me answer that question

Ruth: can you not have music play automatically?

♥◘§: hmmm
to lazy to change
i'll try

Ruth: well
ezekiel was told to prophesy
this is what he saw
i think it's quite possible

♥◘§: really?
something with eye all over it
just seems disgusting

Ruth: and horror movies and apocalypse movies try to imitate the terror that it'll bring
and awe
they twist it though
and fail
just htink
if God can create animals
like platypi

♥◘§: ohhhh

Ruth: and giraffes
and blue whales
and spiders have tons of eyes
so why can't this thing?

♥◘§: truetrue

Ruth: so yeah
it's certianly nothing we've ever seen

♥◘§: hmmmmmm that's odd tho

Ruth: but God does unexpected things

♥◘§: wiat so god just made that to prove a point?

Ruth: i don't thinkso

♥◘§: o__o

Ruth: where does it say that he destroyed them?

♥◘§: at the end

Ruth: where

♥◘§: wait
i think
i read wrong

Ruth: yeah

♥◘§: :(

Ruth: because
ther'es been speculation
not proven or referenced in the bible
that each of these is like an aspect of god
or the son of man
the lion is majesty
the ox is humility/hardworking
the man is the human nature of jesus

♥◘§: ohhhhhh

Ruth: gah i can't remember

♥◘§: haha

Ruth: but if you look at some study bibles

♥◘§: wait what happened to it then?
did it just leave

Ruth: no
it's just there
then ezek's pov changes

♥◘§: ohhhhhhh
thanks ruth

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The title was just for you to read this thingy. This has nothing to do with hugs or free hugs. It has to do with Jesus Christ :D Yay, oh btw pplz: If grace is an ocean, we are drowning inside grace :D Moving on. My friends say, "How can you believe there were _____________________ in the Bible?" Now fill in the blank with something really bizzare. Let's take Ezekiel for instance:
[KJV: Ezekiel 1:4-14]
4And I looked, and, behold, a whirlwind came out of the north, a great cloud, and a fire infolding itself, and a brightness was about it, and out of the midst thereof as the colour of amber, out of the midst of the fire.

5Also out of the midst thereof came the likeness of four living creatures. And this was their appearance; they had the likeness of a man.

6And every one had four faces, and every one had four wings.

7And their feet were straight feet; and the sole of their feet was like the sole of a calf's foot: and they sparkled like the colour of burnished brass.

8And they had the hands of a man under their wings on their four sides; and they four had their faces and their wings.

9Their wings were joined one to another; they turned not when they went; they went every one straight forward.

10As for the likeness of their faces, they four had the face of a man, and the face of a lion, on the right side: and they four had the face of an ox on the left side; they four also had the face of an eagle.

11Thus were their faces: and their wings were stretched upward; two wings of every one were joined one to another, and two covered their bodies.

12And they went every one straight forward: whither the spirit was to go, they went; and they turned not when they went.

13As for the likeness of the living creatures, their appearance was like burning coals of fire, and like the appearance of lamps: it went up and down among the living creatures; and the fire was bright, and out of the fire went forth lightning.

14And the living creatures ran and returned as the appearance of a flash of lightning.

Yah, a four faced monster with wings and eyes like everywhere? Sounds like a cartoon perhaps. Now this thing, as you can agree, is really ugly. And its also bad. And also God basically destroys it to relieve Ezekiel of his fears. Anyways let's get to the main topic. Is it possible for stuff like that to be brought to the Earth? Is it just all faith? Or is this something like a "story?" Answer plz :D

Oct 16, 2009

God's Antecedence

–noun 1. the act of going before; precedence.
2. priority.
3. Astronomy. (of a planet) apparent retrograde motion.

No, you're not a higher rank than other people just because of your status in school. God's Antecedence is always first and everyone else who is NOT you goes next. Always Keep God as your first priority. I will always look back on this post, because I commonly forget of God's importance in our everyday lives. Not trying to be capitain obvious, but without GOD, nobody would be in exsistence. Okay, why does GOD always need to be first? Because the Bible states that this is GOD's will. Being patience, loving, and being a good Christian is the fundamental basis. SHOW LOVE NO MATTER WHAT. (Thanks Elena, Kevin) So basically, for this to work, we need God in our lives. God is the only one who we can go to for fruits to grow. He is the gardener, and as long as we stick with Jesus, "the true vine", we will be growing, and floursing. Though it may not seem like it for others, like me, God is working in your life the minute you accept him. Though you may deteriorate your old personalities, and spiteful ways, God will definetly rejuvinate you into a new person with a clean heart. Your intentions must most definetly be good though, the intention to desire more of God and his good will. We can also read from the Great Commission of furthermore what he wants us to do. We still need to stick with God, no matter what, or else we will rott out. Okay, anyways, back to the topic, we need to prioritze God above all. Keep God in mind at all times, this way its like easier to be a Godly person. Here is my simple guide! (Results may vary):
For the best results, please do it in order

1. Pray to God, Ask for forgiveness, guidance, and time to Ask your question
2. Read the Bible, in hope that God is good. Your prayer/question may be answered because God speaks to you. (Not audibly in this case) but you know God is speaking to you through his text.
3. MEDITATE ON THOSE VERSES. stare & understand
4. Pray for God to get:
a. a better understanding
b. guidance
c. something else relating/nonrelating to the verse
5. IF YOUR QUESTION IS ANSWERED GO TO 6, IF NOT HERE ARE SOME OPTIONS! Talk with people at church, remember to be 100% (as you can atleast) devoted into getting more info about God. No one will hinder you! Ask god through the sermon.
6. IF YOUR QUESTION IS ANSWERED, THEN AMAZING! >.< Apply it to your life, and if anyone has the same question, then answer it for them.
7. This proccess can take anywhere from 15 minutes to a lifetime to complete. (For answering quetisons)
Why keep God in our first prioritty?
You can keep God's prescence each day, easier and easier. How?
a. When you eat lunch
b. Christian club
c. Make a Christian Gang at your school
d. Pray, and help others pray
e. Meditate on his word
f. Pray with your friends

Remember to keep GOD first NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the world does not revolve around you.