melancholy

–noun
1. a gloomy state of mind, esp. when habitual or prolonged; depression.
2. sober thoughtfulness; pensiveness.

One more sad song, one more sorrow time, one more epoch of melancholy.
Annie - Vanessa Carlton
I think this song is amazing, not just how she executes it, but the melodic pattern, but that's not important. This is what's important. Ever had that time of melancholy, that chunk of your life, where you just wished, you were invisible. No one knew you've gone, no one knew you've disappeared. Sorry folks, we need to endure the pain that is happening in your life. So lemme share a life experience. Leon's Story time FTW~
Suicide

by Leon Chen

So what is suicide? the intentional taking of one's own life. Is straight form the dictionary. ;D. I think it's copyright free. Anyways, one day, I got really sad. I, still to this day, do not remember why. I do not know why I have been so sad, I don't remember the tears nor the motive, but I decided a knife can solve all of life's problems. And even though I was partially correct, as arrogant as I was, I sought for a kitchen knife. I was left home alone, and the thought of suicide overwhelmed me. Now that I reflect back on it, I said really stupid things before those thoughts. Anyways what I have done before to a certain extent known as suicide:


Slice my neck open
Slice my wrists open
Stab my heart
Drowning myself (TOTAL FAIL, I STARTED SWIMMING >:O)
Gluttony (I can handle the stupid jokes)
Listening to really loud music (doesn't work kids)
Eat some arsenic



Now that I think back on it, I really think that I was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY stupid. The End.